I find more amazing things comming out of your mouth then I have ever herd in a life time. Look at me , crying because of them. It hurts because your right. It hurts because I know how much I suck and it's amazing how.. and it's amazing how much you just completly shoved it in my face. How you can so easily see the answers that i have been blinded from. That I chose to ignore because iThought it might hurt someone I cared about. You stump me time and time again weathe rit's in rp form or real life. Everythign you do ..or say completly blows my mind into utter chaos and they say I like you. Heh. You really are such a sweet heart Kaworu-kun. I like the fact that you can say This is what's wrong with you and not hold anythign back but at the same time completly open up new doors. Perhaps thats why when I first met you I was so afriad of you.
And yet it still amazes me how you can think you suck so much.. when you rock beyond belief. I havent been able to cry in such a long time. Even when I had thos night mares about my dog dying. All it took was what? 6 sentences and i was crying my eyes out. Im such a baby. yea. Your absoultly amazing. I really wish you coudl see how amazing you are. It's funny cause i never know if im on good or bad terms with you. Your reactiosn to my reactions are unpredictable to me. It drives me nuts. Im not sure what im trying to say. I also think it's those little things that drive me nuts so happy at the end of the day. Well ovbiously, if i can cry and smile at the same time.
I have been focusing to much on trying to go about my life with out causing people to frown so much. Even if it meant holding back what I feel about things. I Havent been able to figure things out for myself sense..all the stuff..but maybe now..
